sitting silently
gritting my teeth
it's not going away
i'm in a hole
it's deep and
it's dark
i've made so many mistakes
and i'm not believing
that there is much future left
i would have
and still would
give you everything
for a reason
for a place
for a way
it isn't that i don't care
it's that i realize
that these things
don't mean anything
i've never been home
i've never been where i belong
i doubt such a place exists
and i am getting older
and uglier
and i can't be completely
wrong
i trust you
and i love you
and i want to believe you
but i know it's too much to ask
so i don't anymore
every song is a sad song today
and i am singing along
and my heart aches
...
