Monday, March 31, 2014

employee.

in my mind
my pockets are
turned out
i pawned my dreams
for rent
and electric bills
i have no more
good ideas
no more free wind
through my hair
no more trips
to distant lands
i wouldn't know
where to go
if i could
anymore
just name tags
and ugly black
leather shoes
fake smiling faces
smiling back at me
and i've conned myself
into caring
for so long
that perhaps
now
i actually do
small paychecks
and
big headaches
the luxury of sleep
that i can afford
i don't
and i haven't
for a long
long time
spending my last
few dollars
on poison
so many poisons
it makes no
difference
they're all toxic
it's all toxic
and i'll only know
how fast it's been
killing me
at the end
and i'll wish
i had done it
differently
only
it will be
too late
...

Monday, March 17, 2014

perceive.

it can be hard
to believe
things
things we hear
things we feel
things we see
we wonder
if we can
understand
if it is true
we want to believe
words
people
ourselves
and whether it
matters
or it doesn't
sometimes
we want it to
so we believe
to keep us calm
to keep us in touch
to give us something
to hold onto
i do believe
that we are all
very deeply
connected
but still
i question
do you hear
what i hear
do you feel
what i feel
do you see
what i see?
...