vanish(but slowly).

alone
i deserve it

maybe

i don't know
i may not be
who i think i am
or thought i was
but it's getting late
and i am way behind
and being lonely
somehow feels
right
to protect myself
and others from me
i am trying to take care
it's hard to be sick
or physically broken
when you're alone
so i am doing this
instead of trying to find
someone
i made mistakes
huge mistakes
and it's better
if they are forgotten
or at very least
disregarded
there's no need
for memories of me
if i could forget
i would
so that's what i think
is happening
like smoke into the air
i disappear

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