suffer the living pt.1

it's hard

not to hurt

someone

somewhere

all throughout a life

i've tried

i failed

whether or not i meant to

means nothing

pain is pain

and with all apologies

we all know

forgiving and forgetting

are two very different things

as flawed as i am

as beaten and broken

as i've become
i know

i am not alone at all

and fairness means

things can't always be fair

not always

selfishness
and
 selflessness 

are two sides of a scale

that can

at times

even out

but not often enough

life is full

of very thin lines

so thin at times

that they seem
invisible

and we trip

and we fall

we cannot follow
these lines

no matter how hard
we try

yet so often

we expect

perfection

but i am afraid

that is a dream

a wish

a demand

that can never be
fulfilled

i am sorry
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