broken.

sitting in the dark

feeling like a child

wishing for tears

to wash away

some of the pain

from anger

to shame

it's never easy

and it's my fault

my escape

was to become my fear

backed into corners

we survive

even if it makes life

worse

hit and pitched

now ugly

and unwanted

once touched

now broken forever

and some choices

are too hard to make

bruised blue

and cold

they saw great things for me

i made them eat their words

i never saw any future

i never saw a place

i never found a home

i found suffering

i found loneliness

and all the hate i felt

i felt towards myself

how could you love me

when i've never loved me

it makes sense

i crawled into it

the only place

i've ever known

i remain

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