yeah yeah yeah.

the truth

yeah yeah yeah...

the truth.

the same simple word

i've used for decades

yet so much still eludes

the truth is

i am in turmoil.

and knowing that i am

lucky

to even be alive

though wonderful

doesn't solve the problems

in my head

i miss things

real things

things that breathe

things that loved me

people

animal

plus another thing

life

i have the best friend

i could ever hope to have

so many times

he has saved me
although

it's not what you may think

i am so grateful

more so than i can ever express to him

but it doesn't stop all the bleeding inside

in time

i hope it will

but time can really hurt

we know this

we have to suffer

to get

there

we get older

we realize that there are no

perfectly green pastures

over four decades

of life

i know this

but that does not mean

that complete unhappiness

is all we get

we hurt

we die slowly

but we don't always

have to feel that way

i am trying

i am reaching

i am sticking to my beliefs

i don't care who

thinks i may be

a liar

or even manipulative

i know it isn't true

it's their problem

and as much as i wish

it wasn't so

i don't have much say over that

i am guilty

just like you

because we're not perfect

and we never will be

at the same time

we are all perfect

we are perfectly who we are

we all trip and fall

and make mistakes

and we don't know what to do next

or how to deal with

how we feel

and riding it out

gets old

and really hurts

all the time

even when we realize

that this is how we have to do it

don't be afraid to cry out

don't be afraid to trust

don't be afraid to

believe

just don't

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