i am overwhelmed with:
confusion
frustration
uncertainty
outright fear
and...
at the same time:
gratitude
love
friendship
outright hope...
how can that be?!?!
i am a cauldron
of emotions
that i can't understand
and it makes me feel stupid
at my age
not to be
and feel
more...
stable.
as always,
i know i am not alone
but that doesn't give me
any answers...
part of me
could really give a shit...
ya know??
this is life,
yes?
right?
but that doesn't
always help...
does it?
i know
that you know
this feeling
perhaps
to a lesser
or more
degree...
and this is exactly why
this is written
we can suffer
alone.
we can rejoice
alone.
but i want to share
why?
because it's who i am.
so...
i ask you...
do you read on?
or stop right here?
so now we all have choices...
stay
go
move
stand still
live
or die
literally
figuratively
what are you gonna do?
what am i gonna to do?
no one knows...
no one knows...
no one could ever
know.
but we can
help each other
decide
we can help each other
continue on
through this maze...
you don't owe me anything...
not a response
of any kind
not even any simple
recognition at all
you can turn your back
and this will
all continue
anyway
i just do this
i reach out
i let you in
and i don't care
i really don't
like it or not
here it is
tonight
...
I can relate.
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