Twenty One Years Old.

You won't miss the little things I do because you never noticed them...


You won't remember my smile because you never felt it in your heart...


The time we shared together is the time you refer to as "spent", not shared...


You will tell yourself over and over that what you did was right until you believe it...


Your memory of me will be whatever is easiest for you to deal with. That's your style...


You will end up alone and lonely...


You will always consider yourself unlucky and you convince yourself it's a fact...


You will always find an excuse to ruin a wonderful thing because you are so afraid of failure, yet you fail yourself every time...


If you tell yourself the same lie again and again, you will most likely start to believe it, thus losing your grasp on reality...


You will say that there is something wrong with you and claim that you do not know what it is just to avoid making a move...


You make decisions when you have no idea what to choose. Why do you do that?...


Your deep side frightens you so much that you never get involved in anything. In time you will completely lose touch and become totally alone and depressed and boring...


You feel that you can make it through life by living a shallow existence, yet you will always wonder why no one really cares about you...


You run away from any new challenge which you must face alone...


You turn your back on those who love you & embrace those who don't care about you because it's easier that way...


You are beautiful yet you will not accept the compliment for fear that someone will take advantage of you...


You are naive because you don't pay attention to what's really going on around you...


People use you and lie to you because they know you can blow it off...


When you act like you don't care, people will take what they can from you because they think you have no self respect...


People who want from you will tell you anything you want to hear if it gets them what they want...


You listen to people as if they see your side, but you must realize that they don't and never will...


If you don't want to change yourself, then you don't have to - to feel pain and be unhappy and confused sometimes is only human...


There are a million directions you can go and no one can stop you but you...


What's right and what's wrong are just opinions, you just have to decide which opinions matter to you...


Someone may say something to you a hundred times and it may never sink in, yet another can say something only once and it may change your life forever. Isn't it strange how one person's words can be valued so highly over another's?...


Different people understand things in different ways. You must realize this...


Your reality and my reality are different. Your views and my views are different. Just as different as any two people on Earth. If there is a problem... Solve the problem.


- a short excerpt from one of the six existing books seven I wrote between 1990 - 1994. This is from April 3, 1993. I was twenty one years old.