Thursday, May 17, 2012

elemental mentality.

everything falls apart
chips away
crumbles
sometimes
it appears to happen
right before our eyes
or at least it feels
and looks that way
elemental damage
is causing me mental damage
tonight
i'm seeing things
break down
wither away
decay
i don't like it
but
when has that ever mattered
?
erosion is inevitable...
i guess
when we feel good
we simply aren't thinking about that
now that-
i like
bliss
without feeling
blissful
being in "la-la land"
without even knowing it
wonderful
beautiful
euphoria
then
as soon as the thought
that the feeling might stop
sometime
anytime
at some point
be it
sooner
or
later
there it goes...
the door is kicked in
and we're back
to emptying fuel tanks
fossilized insect wings
browning leaves
and greying
thinning hair
as if gravity
just landed a solid blow
to the solar plexus
we lose our wind
our sails drop
and it's then
as my head drops
and my chin
reaches my chest
and my
slightly moistening eyes
slowly close
i beg a question:
how can we decide
?
what could provide us
with the faith enough
to feel some sort of validation
that anything could even be:
real
?
an answer that isn't just
an opinion
that lets us know
that there truly is
either more
or less
significance
in what we believe
in what we feel
is beauty
or ugliness,
reality
or dreams,
good
or bad,
right
or
wrong
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