suffer the living pt.2

this feeling is
consuming me

these thoughts are
overwhelming me

i'm going through it

another episode

even if i wore armor

it wouldn't be enough

as if it's inhaled

and there is
no escape

reading to find remedies

or writing out for therapy

it must run it's course

so

again

i fall

just as we all do

and i don't want to face it

any more than you do

self doubt

and confusion

frustration

and illusion

nothing's happening

but still

it's engulfing

the harder i fight

the more it burns

so i let go

no matter how i choose

to approach it

it pains me
nonetheless

did nothing to deserve it

did nothing to provoke it
or so i thought

but that never made
 any difference

and it never will

it isn't good
or bad

it's both

and it's neither

at the same time

no action

no reaction

just the current
of time and thought

and the way things go

throughout time

can only get used to so much

but it mutates to survive

and have it's effect

if there is a reason

it's unknown

at least to me

all i can do

is recognize it's presence

and deal with it

how i choose

and although
this time
i have chosen

not to put up a fight

it still finds it's way

to seep into me

knowing the futility

of fighting this infection

changes very little

so

i am forced

to ride out the storm

and if it should

if something should

take my breath

that may be the only way

not to see

and feel it through

until it isn't anymore

this fact is faced

so suffer i will

with nothing more

than the solace of knowing

that sooner or later

this too
shall pass
...