forever yours.

i think about you

every single day

you've been in my blood

you've been in my heart

and in and through my brain

having to fight

the mere thought of you

takes a piece of me

all day

all night

even in my dreams

you appear

i struggle for you

i fight for you

i fight you

it's been harder than

i ever imagined

to keep you away

and not seek you out

i purse my lips

i close my eyes

i clench up inside

wait for the times

to change

for the moments to pass

i know

you'll be in my head again

and again

it doesn't

and never did matter

whether or not

i want you there

or not

i am your slave

even when you aren't with me

you haven't been near me

or even
in my grasp

for so long

but still

you seem so real

in my dreams

in my thoughts

you are ingrained in me

and it makes me feel

like i've already died

like i've already used

you

even just the thought of
you

to kill myself

over and over again

i have this feeling

that it will never stop

never cease

it's haunting

and i am to blame

because i fell in love with you

and letting go

of true love

seems impossible

can it even happen?

can it?

i don't want to know

i need to know

can i get you
out of my mind

out of my life

forever?

or not?

....