decisions.

decisions

we take them

we make them

whether we want to

or not

we have to deal with them

and the politics

these crooked beliefs

that someone debated

to somehow make sense

to someone

sometimes to you

sometimes to me

lean the scales

of our decisions

just how much time

do you or i have

to make the right decisions

?

sometimes you must act

without thought

even when your heart

is in the right place

the involvement of others

effect the outcomes

of our choices

most of us

aren't instinctually out

to hurt another

but it happens

doesn't it?

we make choices

that we dread

having to live with

but we make them nonetheless

no choice

no time

no other options

so...

sometimes we prevail

sometimes we slip

and take a nasty fall

we can only prepare so much

for what we think

we may have to encounter

and it stings

and we want to go back

and react differently

but we cannot

is it too late

damage insues

we break things

we never wanted to break

and then

they are gone forever

most of the time

these "cat-like" reflexes

we wish to possess

we never will

you will screw up

so will i

it happens to everyone

everyday

all the time

without reason

without warning

without any control

we can practice

we can attempt

to have forsight

it helps

but it is no failsafe

this is not meant to

be negative

or positive

it is merely

an observation

focused

within myself

over many many years

i believe

the very best way

to deal with it

is to come to terms with it

you will never be perfect

not to anyone else

not in your own mind

not in this lifetime

realize this

and it helps you let go

helps you

not think so damn much

about everything

then

maybe we can

make our daily decisions

with clearer thought

and maybe

just maybe

we can stay upright

just a little more often

...