ugly.

you told me that i am

beautiful

you looked right into my eyes

you meant it.

i know.

you loved me.

that,

i also know

even now

that you may not love me

anymore

i can still feel

the warmth

i remember

the feeling

it meant more to me

than anything

ever

because i loved you also

and because of that

i still love you

i always have

i always will

because you weren't just talking

about my eyes

or my lips

you saw inside of me

when i asked you:

"what is beautiful about me?"

you replied,

"everything"

i never thought i would hear those words

from someone

so special to me

because

in my heart

in my soul

you were

perfection

and you meant it

i've never thought i was anything

but a struggling

weathered man

like any other

yes
it is true

i love you

i would have done

anything

for you

i still would

you saw me

you see me

you know me

and though

i feel like the ugliest man

alive

you made me feel

beautiful

as if i had done right

as if all i've stood for

my whole life

meant something after all

i knew exactly what you meant

it doesn't matter what happened

it doesn't matter where you are now

i will always feel you

your spirit

your words

they weren't simply heard

they were felt

and i haven't been the same since

and i never will be

if i'm fortunate

maybe someone will

see me like that again

like the way you saw me

the way you felt me

i still feel ugly

but that's ok

because that doesn't mean

anything

it doesn't take away

who i am

i remember how i felt

when i told you that you were

beautiful

i meant it every time

i still mean it

this entire story

is not as it reads

it's more than these words

these simple words

-read between these lines-

don't be afraid

this beauty

and

this ugliness

are the same

there is beauty

in the ugliness of life

and ugliness
in the beauty

but the look in your eyes

the warmth of  your smile

i will always feel

no matter how ugly

i believe myself to be
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