threshold of capabilities.

limits and boundaries

set within our

conscious

and unconscious minds

what can i do?

vs

what have i done?

each experience

creates new capabilities

good and bad

helpful and harmful

new... skills

for lack of better terms

regardless of outcomes

be it pain

or joy

thinking about doing something

and seeing it through

are, of course,

very different

once we have taken something

that is not ours to take...

once we have stolen

we now have the ability

to steal

once we have cheated

we now have the skill

to cheat

once we have performed

before a group of people

we now are able to do it

no matter how hard it was

or what the result was

we have crossed

a threshold of capabilities

and our skillset is ever-growing

from the smallest of achievements

to the most undesirable of actions

until we are cut down

steal bread with your right hand,

get caught,

and have your right hand chopped off...

obviously...

you will never steal bread

with your right hand again

but the ability to use your left

remains

lesson learned

or not

it is now in your arsenal

because it isn't about thinking

it's about feeling

fear

accomplishment

self-loathing

or the building of

self confidence

growth.

some would never do

what i've done

what you've done

but everyone

will do

what they will do

it's the same

regardless

of the threshold to cross

and the cross to bare

that comes along with it,

you and i will cross them.

in this way,

amongst so many others,

we are all the same.

all of us.

control is limited

because one thing

that will never change

is that things

and life

will always change

and even if we were

to stand completely still

our entire lives

we will cross thresholds

gain capabilities

there is no stopping it

refuse it or embrace it

doesn't matter...

except in one way:

either

we will be

miserable

more often than

happy

or the other way around...

the question is

and always is:

what will we do

with these abilities

that we will acquire

whether we wish to

or not?

and although this would take

lifetimes to answer

as we live

in this here

and this now

it is shaping

the man

or woman

we aspire to be.

in this,

we do have choices

i try to choose as wisely as i can

but if i think too much

i will not live as much

by making decisions

about who i am

about who i wish to be

and living by them

it seems to help me
more often than not

keep my skills

my abilities

more within my grasp

as we constantly

and consistently

cross these

thresholds of capabilities.